Feeling Like an Orchid Failure

[Blondie]

Hello. I'm feeling sad. My brassia kicked the bucket. I'm also failing at keeping one of my minis alive (I have 5). And I have 3 phals that are doing nothing. Well, one is kicking out a new root, but that's it. I feel like a failure. I've killed one orchid and I'm on my way to killing another one. And who knows? Maybe more.

Nothing is blooming. Nothing is spiking. Nothing seems to love me. Is this normal? I read SO many books about orchids. I try so hard. But nothing. They are rejecting me. Yes, I grow in my apt without perfect culture. Yes, I'm a bad fert girl. But come on! Why don't my babies love me as much as I love them?!

I thought you all might understand. If you've killed an orchid, please share. I need the empathy!!